Week IV: May 19-25

I haven’t been writing much about therapy this week. It was a rough week with Mrs. B. being back from her vacation. I had many ups and downs as the sessions were very intimate and exhausting. I felt like s***, I felt ok, then again my flight instinct was overpowering, I felt that I was moving forward, I felt worn out. It’s been irritating, but overall I feel that it’s been a good week after the disappointing one before. I can’t put everything into words yet, as I’m still digesting, and I guess a lot of the things discussed in the sessions are (yet) too private to disclose.

I guess another reason for not feeling like writing this week is that I’ve started a video diary. I managed to borrow a camcorder from our company and I recorded 5-10 minutes every day. It’s just that I want to remember my impressions, thoughts and all the things I’m going through in every little detail. Something is happening with me here and I want to hold on to this changing image of mine in some kind of form, whether it’s writing or recording. 

I won’t post these videos and I’m not yet sure what I’m going to do with the recorded tapes. Maybe I’ll just keep them, maybe I’ll burn them when I’m all over this, maybe I’ll post them (which I seriously doubt).

So instead of filling this week with (too) many words, I’ll just post some impressions from a stroll around Kreuzberg (the neighborhood where I live) from last weekend. Hope you enjoy.